Dear Ritwik,

This is my very first letter to you…and i am so excited about it! There are times when i want to tell you a million things, but i cannot…simply because you do not have time (or inclination) to sit in one place and listen to me even for 2 minutes (max!)…and i totally get it, son. You are into this awesomely explorative phase of toddlerhood…and lazing around or sitting quietly in one place does not exist in your dictionary! So here i am – writing letters to you, so that some day (whenever you are ready), we both can sit back and relax and read these out together!

Today i am going to write to you about “colors”! (yes i am kinda still in the Holi-mood). Well, quite frankly, i have played holi just once when i was in school! I am not really the kinds to get drenched in colors. You see, mumma is not really the adventurous kinds 🙁   But that in no way means i will ever stop you from enjoying this festival…you can go and paint the town red (well, not literally!)

Ok, coming back to “colors”…for me, 26th Nov 2012 was the most “colorful” day of my life…that was the day when you made a super grand entry in to our life! And you gave birth to me…your “mother”….you made our life magical…since then you have been the artist of my life…you are my  Andy Warhol – painting beautiful artworks on my life’s canvas. There is no dull moment with you around… Yeah there are many many crazy, tiring moments…but even they are truly colorful, i betcha! “YOU”, my boy have made me realize the true meaning of “colors’!

Colors are no longer just red, blue, yellow, purple and so on.. Color to me now means more than a mere hue…it is that happy feeling when my face blushes and goes all pink when you hug and cuddle onto me…color to me is feeling all blue when you are sad or not feeling good…it also means going red with rage when you throw toddler tantrums..and suddenly it means feeling all bright and sunny to watch you play, babble, sing and sway! Whatever the shade may be, all mixed together it creates the most beautiful color of all times – the color of “motherhood”..of “Love”…and of “Happiness”.

Before you were born, colors to me were crayons and pencils…but now they mean much much more especially when you scribble something silly with those same crayons and pencils!

I have watched you grow from a lil infant to a naughty toddler – and all throughout you have taught me zillions of things that i as an adult am majorly lacking in – be it determination, free spirit, patience, perseverance and strong-will! i have watched you turn, crawl, cruise and now walk – and i know these milestones aren’t easy, my boy . I have watched you fall and get hurt…but i have never seen you give up….i have seen you cry and then forgetting about it…and smiling & giggling right after that as if nothing bad really happened! You, my bravo son, have taught me the true meaning of color – you have taught me that a super colorful moment will always come after every dull, grey moment.  You have made me believe that there ALWAYS will be a “rainbow” after every “rain”! 🙂

You have colored my life with priceless memories and have splashed oodles of your love in it. Thank you for adding such beautiful colors in my life – especially those colors that i thought never existed in my world – colors of gratitude, of unconditional love and of “living -in -the -moment”.

I am gonna sign off by dedicating to you a line from one of my fave movie – Lizzie McGuire:

“When I see you smiling, I go-oh oh ohh
Yesterday my life was duller
Now everything’s technicolor !”

Love you,

Mumma.